..lay entwined together in a bed of clover..

I want to just create art for the rest of my life.  I take photographs constantly.  Sometimes up to a thousand in one week.  I see things much differently than others do.  A friend asked me how I can go around taking pictures of flowers and inanimate objects..I just want to.  I do it for no one but myself.  I don't like photographing people much.  Especially posed situations.  Too boring.  I like to show people things that I notice.  I'd like to start posting some of those photos on here; feel free to comment as often as you'd like.  Thanks!  :)

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                                              This donkey looks really sad.  
                                              Cute little guy.
                                              The sky one morning while I drove Chris to school.
                                              Aren't these turtles adorable?!  :)

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I'm free!!  

I had my last final today, and ahh...

I feel so relieved to be done with school for a few months.

Yes, the move is going to stress me out.  

But, not nearly as much as school.

I have so many plans for this summer already.  

I have to spend all of my time with several different people.

I gotta be a super great aunt so Wren will remember me when I move.

I'm painting vases right now.  I've also been pressing flowers, and growing them too.

I'm averaging 400 pictures a week.  Taking that many.  Of everything.

I love these cool spring nights.  They smell amazing..

The song 'daylight' by matt and kim is insanely catchy.  dl it.

the times, they are a-changin'

So it's official.  Come August, Chris and I will be residents of Philadelphia.  I'm pretty pumped for this!  :)  I have two good friends who live out there already, so that's just great!  Here's to a happy future!

You keep your sins in the ceiling; I keep mine close to my chest.

Chris came home today! He had a good time in the Big Apple.

Pixie and I are both thrilled that he's back.  :)

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Random surprise today.  We now get Bravo, Sci-Fi, and the History Channel on our cable.  Why?  Beats me!  But I'm pretty excited about it.

...and sometimes I can't stop smiling.

Things have changed oh, so quickly in the last few months.  But, in such a great way.  I feel...happy most days.  That's not been the case for a while.  The winter trimester at school has just one week left.  I took one more class this semester than last.  I also worked one more day a week.  Yet I haven't hardly felt stressed at all.  This isn't the usual at all.  I inherited from my mom the ability to be far too caring, far too much of a worrier.  It's not living.  It's being consumed with anxiety daily, worrying about everything.  I'm trying to look more at the big picture.  Shake off the small, unimportant things, and let go.  

Chris is going to NYC for a few days.  He's presenting a paper he wrote at a conference there.  Damnit, he's smart :D I'm going to miss him a lot.  He's leaving on valentine's day, but that doesn't matter half as much as being together on my birthday does.  Birthdays are our own special days.  It's when people think about you, remembering your birthday.  And we'll ignore the fact that they probably only remembered because they saw the reminder on facebook.  :P

The Steelers Won the Superbowl!!!!

Hell yes!  It's days like today that I feel incredibly proud to be from right outside Pittsburgh!  The Steelers are Superbowl 43 Champs!!!! 

HERE WE GO, STEELERS!!  HERE WE GO!!!

break in case of fire.

I hate roommates.  I would adore living with just my boyfriend and my cute little dog.  No more left-up toilet seats.  No more smelly dark yellow piss swimming around in the toilet bowl.  No more digging snow shovels out of the three feet of snow on our front yard, after a certain someone threw it from the sidewalk instead of walking the 10 feet to set it on our porch.  No more being kept awake by loud, powerpop music late at night.  No more washing dishes for anyone but myself.  No more buying toilet paper every other week because someone has to make a bowel movement several times a day, every day.  Oh, god, how wonderful it will be to live in a more reasonably-sized apartment; no more extravagant gas and electric bills.  And no more blown circuit breakers because everyone just has to have a mini-fridge in their bedroom.  When there's a regular sized one right down the stairs.  Jesus christ.  

I am so damn passive-agressive.  I have no balls, and I always let others walk all over me.  It's happened four times now.  But this time, I'm fighting back.  The old me lays down and becomes the welcome mat at the front door.  But the new me;  the new me takes the toilet paper from the bathroom, so that you can wipe your shit-stained ass with your smelly fingers.  :)

2009.

This year has been lovely, thus far.  

My good mood has continued for an entire month; this is rare for me.  

I'm hoping for many more months of this.

Obama became our president last week.  This has overjoyed me to no extent!

There is so much hope for our country now.  In his first days, he told of his plan to shut down Guantanamo, which was a mistake from when it's doors were opened.

As a future teacher, I feel ecstatic to know that children who live in urban areas and in poverty now have a hero- a black man who was able to become the most powerful man in our country, if not in our world.  This is just inexplainable.  This means that those children have something to aim for.  

YES WE CAN!

if not yours.

you look at yourself in the bottom of your glass.

eyes wide, 

mouth hanging open, 

you wish you were someone else.

empty bottles litter the floor

as you step around your insecurities.

bruised elbows push through

crowds as we try to find each other.

i'm here.

help me up again.

i'm not whole if i'm not yours.